http://tocket.info/2009/10/florida-mum/ Family, Friends, and the occasional gnome. Mon, 24 May 2010 22:09:09 +0000 hourly 1 http://wordpress.org/?v=3.1.2 http://tocket.info/2009/10/florida-mum/comment-page-1/#comment-4 Connie Tue, 20 Oct 2009 04:31:31 +0000 http://tocket.info/?p=28#comment-4 What can I say ? I believe in a higher power , karma , fate and destiny have alaways played a and in many ways it has ruled my world when I let it. 3 weeks or so before Diane came into my life my mother left this earth and sitting in church at her funeral I looked around at my family, friends and relatives and realized I was not just sitting alone in a whole long pew , I was actually alone. My best friend was no longer going to be there for me or I for her.... I love my family and friends, but really never had a deep connection with them... I had finally after many yrs of heartbreak had found that connection with my mom only to lose her to parkinson's disease and then death ... I have always believed that soulmates are not just partners in a relationship but those who are of the same kind of soul ... I had one once when I was a teen on the run , she took me in and kept me out of the drugs and prostitution crap ..... When I first met Diane - it was like looking back in time at myself ... her doe-like eyes filled with mistrust and a fear of being caught , had been there done that and knew I could not let her go alone ... no matter what . as she said I had to convince a few that I was going to be there for her no matter what ... what they didn't understand and never will is that she was my saviour as well ... and hind sight is 20-20 and sucks that it comes so late , I have thoughts that I should have made a better enviroment for her and not have let my *family* screw around so much with drugs around ... should not have smoked pot then myself either ... I should have strived for better things for us both , but between the higher powers that be and each other and our new loves and lifes we have both been blessed beyond any thing I ever hoped for..... I am sooooo excited about going to see her and her new baby , my granddaughter!! I just ca't wait .... althougn she is sooo many miles away she is always right next to me in my heart ... she kind of got her geography screwed up tho > s she pushed me out of the car at the airport when I got cold feet and wasn't sure about comming to Florida from Wisconsin, " she said don't worry Mum, I'll move down there someday tooo - I love the ocean .... well she moved alright ... Towards the wrong ocean all the way in Oregon!!! Well thanks to airplanes I will be there in less than 48 hrs! What a happy reunion this will be for sure and more family for me to love with all my heart !!! What can I say ? I believe in a higher power , karma , fate and destiny have alaways played a and in many ways it has ruled my world when I let it. 3 weeks or so before Diane came into my life my mother left this earth and sitting in church at her funeral I looked around at my family, friends and relatives and realized I was not just sitting alone in a whole long pew , I was actually alone.
My best friend was no longer going to be there for me or I for her…. I love my family and friends, but really never had a deep connection with them… I had finally after many yrs of heartbreak had found that connection with my mom only to lose her to parkinson’s disease and then death … I have always believed that soulmates are not just partners in a relationship but those who are of the same kind of soul … I had one once when I was a teen on the run , she took me in and kept me out of the drugs and prostitution crap …..
When I first met Diane – it was like looking back in time at myself … her doe-like eyes filled with mistrust and a fear of being caught , had been there done that and knew I could not let her go alone … no matter what . as she said I had to convince a few that I was going to be there for her no matter what … what they didn’t understand and never will is that she was my saviour as well … and hind sight is 20-20 and sucks that it comes so late , I have thoughts that I should have made a better enviroment for her and not have let my *family* screw around so much with drugs around … should not have smoked pot then myself either … I should have strived for better things for us both , but between the higher powers that be and each other and our new loves and lifes we have both been blessed beyond any thing I ever hoped for….. I am sooooo excited about going to see her and her new baby , my granddaughter!! I just ca’t wait …. althougn she is sooo many miles away she is always right next to me in my heart … she kind of got her geography screwed up tho > s she pushed me out of the car at the airport when I got cold feet and wasn’t sure about comming to Florida from Wisconsin, ” she said don’t worry Mum, I’ll move down there someday tooo – I love the ocean …. well she moved alright … Towards the wrong ocean all the way in Oregon!!! Well thanks to airplanes I will be there in less than 48 hrs! What a happy reunion this will be for sure and more family for me to love with all my heart !!!

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